Danganronpa: Prospective Despair

Astrea of the Stars 06-Sep-21 07:09 PM

( @koi★ hey! you know what this is lol you can do pretty much whatever here, though most of the time, people try to stay ic while doing stuff here by default, this diary is revealed if/when your oc dies - if you dont want that, just ask!

koi★ 06-Sep-21 07:09 PM

yehayehayehs okokok ty!!

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Chunyu Tsuguri || Ult. Surgeon BOT 06-Sep-21 07:23 PM

xx-xx-xxxx Day 1. Hah, my pathetic ass really thought that I'd be able to doze off into a world of endless peace and quiet, didn't it? Funny to think about how I'm still struggling with sleep even after waking up from 1 year of presumable coma, being told that I'm in a game of mutual murder (Hey, if I word it like that, the wording makes it sound kind of nicer than it is.) and being stuck in some bunker-esque facility with 19 other victims. God, save me. Eh, but hey, look at the bright side, Chunyu! You're away from her! You know who. That's probably the only good thing coming out of this, however, nobody's going to be taking photos of you outside of bushes now, right? That's an incredibly good thing, I hope you realise that. I know. I know, I know, but this is pretty goddamn dire. I hope they have coffee, atleast. Right, of course you do. Yeah, I'm heading back to sleep trying to sleep. I might write about interractions at a later point in time, not entirely sure. I haven't contributed anything close to a significant amount, and that honestly worries me. - Tsuguri Chunyu, xx-xx-xxxx

Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 08-Sep-21 08:26 PM

xx-xx-xxxx Day 3. Going to keep this one short. Some of the people here are pretty nice. Some are... The equivalent of 5 year olds running around at a playground without parental supervision. I really appreciate the good apples of the bunch, however. Also, what the fuck happened. I swear I almost got hit by a truck. - Tsuguri Chunyu, xx-xx-xxxx

Drake Aelius BOT 08-Sep-21 08:26 PM

(ill do it again /j

Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 08-Sep-21 08:26 PM

(do not.

Drake Aelius BOT 08-Sep-21 08:26 PM

(bet

koi★ 08-Sep-21 08:27 PM

(the next day, chunyu tsuguri, ultimate surgeon, is found dead. COD? truck.

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Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 09-Sep-21 09:07 PM

xx-xx-xxxx Day 4. Soha makes me want to laugh. He's a true comedian, isn't he? I find him pathetic, truly. He believed all of that. Maybe he didn't receive it well, and understandably so, however, I just find it so funny he actually believed in the words I spat out. The only true ability he has is to juggle books, and most probably also to get drunk, or high, or whatever the hell. His talent can be passed off as illegitimate, yet his energy and utter unintelligence can't. When you look back at this, please note, that you did not feel like writing today. You, however, thought that recording your thoughts like this on a regular basis might be a healthy habit to get into. - Tsuguri Chunyu, xx-xx-xxxx

koi★ 10-Sep-21 05:59 AM

wait ill just put this here real quick

but i find it pretty inconvenient how chunyus personality writing has changed quite a bit since i did the app (edited)

so now im here tryna incorporate some of the elements of his personality from the app into the one i had built up for him without actually changing him that much

and damn its hard

ok done mini-rant

Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 10-Sep-21 10:22 PM

xx-xx-xxxx Day 5. It was nice meeting someone here with similar experiences to mine. I don't feel like writing at the moment, I'd prefer to just leave myself to my books. Might elaborate later. - Tsuguri Chunyu, xx-xx-xxxx

Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 12-Sep-21 11:54 AM

xx-xx-xxxx Day 6. (?) Keeping it brief again! I've noticed that I haven't been feeling that literate in my writing recently, but hey, this diary exists for me to note down my feelings, and not write full on paragraphs about things that occur to me. So, the idol child hosted some uh... Weird sleepover? I didn't stay, of course, I would never, however ~~(Woah, look Chunyu!! That rhymed. You're an absolute coincidental rhyming god!)~~ there was a karaoke! I decided to take part, as much as it would pain me to say. And damn, it was actually extremely fun. I didn't expect to be that relaxed, ever, really, but here especially. I'm pretty goddamn surprised about the positive reactions I got, too, so that's nice. Yeah, that's it. Rather be reading. - Tsuguri Chunyu, xx-xx-xxxx

Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 12-Sep-21 04:48 PM

xx-xx-xxxx Day 6. (?) // 2 aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa (ooc note : this was all written in cursive, all the a's connected) Alright, that's it for my nice little writing exercise. - Tsuguri Chunyu, xx-xx-xxxx

Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 14-Sep-21 04:29 PM

xx-xx-xxxx Day 8. (?) i fucked up how fun - Tsuguri Chunyu, xx-xx-xxxx

xx-xx-xxxx Day 8. (?) // 2 shut up for the love of god (admin note : shaky writing) - Tsuguri Chunyu, xx-xx-xxxx

Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 17-Sep-21 04:16 PM

xx-xx-xxxx Day 11. (?) I want to evaporate so much I just want to dissolve this is too much I'd apologise for putting this here, but this is my private diary, isn't it? I can't even think of anything to put on paper anymore. These voices are really taking away my entire wellbeing and dragging my brain along with it ha - Tsuguri Chunyu, xx-xx-xxxx

koi★ 19-Sep-21 04:26 PM

hey uh dont really feel like dming but I should be fine now

took some meds, got some water and some food

so yeah

Astrea of the Stars 19-Sep-21 04:27 PM

=unmute @koi★

YAGPDB.xyz BOT 19-Sep-21 04:27 PM

Unmuted koi ★#0533

koi★ 19-Sep-21 04:27 PM

neat

thanks for the mute btw

actually helped a lot

Astrea of the Stars 19-Sep-21 04:27 PM

np! not the first time ive muted someone for their own health lol

koi★ 22-Sep-21 08:15 PM

i was so close to falling asleep but then that mute actually woke me up smh

anyways excuse me as i search up "7 hours of sleep sounds" somewhere

koi★ 24-Sep-21 09:11 PM

when perm mute

Person Exists 24-Sep-21 09:13 PM

((https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=teIbh8hFQos

TheGedvis

Go the f**k to sleep, read by Samuel L Jackson

Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 01-Oct-21 04:32 AM

forgot this existed. oops.

no formatting. just reminding myself that i have a diary.

im going back to sleep ~~(that means my admin is going to class)~~ farwell diary

i mean farewell fuck.

Est 03-Oct-21 06:20 AM

( @koi★ And you're back)

koi★ 03-Oct-21 06:21 AM

thankyou

koi★ 16-Oct-21 04:18 AM

(forgot this exists again!)

Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 16-Oct-21 09:24 AM

Alright, 5 people are dead now, love that, truly. I wonder how much longer I can keep hiding, every day I want to reveal more about myself. Can't though! Forcing emotions to a near perfect note does come in useful here, can't lie. Spices up the game too, I'd say. - Honestly, although I mightn't explicitly say it to the others and all, I must say, those executions... Oh, are they burnt into my brain. I never thought someone's demise could make such an impact. Not only on me, but on everyone. Everyone would remember your death, your untimely demise. Would remember you for your misdeeds and good actions, would remember the way you went out. I want that. I want to be remembered. That's all I want. To be engraved into everyone's minds. I'm an awful person, and I'm aware of that. People would rather be glad if I just... Died. They'd forget. How about I Not yet. It's not the right time yet. Patience is a virtue. I'll wait. And while I wait, I might as well make my own version of the ''Participant Profiles''. A good time waster. - Tsuguri Chu-- fuck signatures. This is my own personal diary, afterall.

koi★ 16-Oct-21 09:24 AM

(and thus he starts planning for ch5 :)

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koi★ 17-Oct-21 11:02 AM

(aaalright, random kick of motivation, time to remake participant profiles for this thing

(nvm motivation went poof

Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 20-Oct-21 07:28 PM

I don't care anymore, everything has just been leading up to this seemingl deadend in my thoughts. Do I mind? No, I'm more of glad I finally know where I'm standing. I've murdered her with my words, and yet, I don't feel anything. Quite amusing, to me, atleast. It's funny since I actually felt as if we were friends or something, and yet, I don't feel remorse for giving her the inspiration to kill a person. I've trailed off. Let me do so again. I have the right, nobody'll see this, and even if someone does, it's fine for me not to be professional on paper. Unless I'm writing out applications or documents or something. I'm honestly taken aback by the fact that nobody has caught on yet. My lies and fabrications. The fact that nearly every fibre of my public profile is fabricated. How can someone my age even become a fucking surgeon? Does nobody take education into account anymore? Apparently not! But then again, I'd say I'm a pretty good liar. It's funny to know that everybody thinks that everything is real, when, in reality, everything I've been putting up has been a façade. My feelings! My thoughts! Everything! And yet I'm finding it all to be fairly easy to keep up with. Half truths, half lies, I've wrapped myself in a veil of them, and yet, I can still see. That's something that takes experience to pull of. Something that takes knowledge, something that takes thought. Glad to know I have a brain! Something I'd be told constantly that I have a lack of, in a metaphorical sense, ending up being extremely prevalent throughout my time here... I'm glad his wo- // Abrupt cut off. × I may end up dead, and yet, I'll secure my spot in everyone's minds, I'll secure my spot in history. I'll live. Not as myself, but as a memory. A memory engrained in everyone's minds. I, Tsuguri Chunyu, this repressed child, will take my final now eventually, my final act played out to all. Patience is a virtue, as always.

Est 30-Oct-21 08:55 PM

( @koi★ )

koi★ 30-Oct-21 08:55 PM

(HOLY SHIT THE TYPO HAS BEEN CORRECTED TOO???

(WOAHHHH!!)

(thank you.)

Soapy | Somehow above you(?) 30-Oct-21 08:56 PM

(hey besties~ we're back~

koi★ 30-Oct-21 08:56 PM

(were baaack!!!~~~)

chunyu (sp)ooc BOT 30-Oct-21 08:56 PM

(gtfo of my diary)

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Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 31-Oct-21 06:14 PM

(implied su/c/de) OH, If ONLY I was Taiga, laying on those train tracks!! OHOHOH-- Oh. What an intro to a post 4th trial diary entry! That execution as usual didn't disappoint, but the true highlight of all of this for me? Kaida's plan!! Their plan... Oh, it was amazing! So smart, so manipulative... It was amazing! So well planned out! How I appreciate such an effort, such a gruesome, brutal effort! ... Hm. I need to think something through. We're about to get to the 5th trial... 5th motive... Hm. May I, Tsuguri Chunyu, be remembered as who I really am, an awful, wicked person! I'll make that happen. I will.

Chunyu Tsuguri BOT 13-Nov-21 08:03 PM

...This will be my final diary entry. I did it, I quite literally committed homicide. I didn't even do it on a whim. I've planned all of this through, over and over, and even tried to make this as easy as possible for everyone just so that I can finally cease existing. I've done all of this for a grandiose execution, and I hope I get caught for my crimes. ....And yet, why do I feel this way? This feeling of regret? I'll be leaving a friend behind. I feel so, so guilty, and that causes me to ask, did I really want this? I ask myself this, over, and over, again. Yeah, my life may be complete and utter shit, yeah, I have nothing to live for, but I made a friend, a good one. The burden of leaving her behind is becoming heavier the longer I think about it. However, the longer I think, the more I realise that I DID in fact make the correct choice. It's better for me, better for the others. After all, who needs a childish idiot to laugh at the deceased? Who needs a childish idiot who lies whenever it's more convenient for him? ...Not like there's even a point in thinking about that anymore. I'm about to leave this earth, about to leave it once and for all. None of this is a colourful daydream anymore. All of this will finally become a reality. If anyone ends up reading this... May you, the reader, remember me, Tsuguri Chunyu, as the awful person I was back when I was alive. But for now, Let me live my final moments with a smile.